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Saturday, January 21, 2012

I've been holding~

Assalamualaikum...

T_T <----tersimpan kemas dan rapi. Tak mau keluar. Ok, aku menahan diri. Terima kasih.

p/s: Ada benda nak cerita tapi, dah lupa. Padan muka. Tadi tak nak tulis terus.

Terlajak beli tiket, kena balik~

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah.

Alhamdulillah. Aku dah selamat pergi dan balik dari beli tiket. Maklumlah, kena naik bas sendiri. Memang aku seram sejuk tadi. Sampaikan masa beli token kat stesen LRT tadi pun tangan aku masih pucat lesi.

Dah lama sangat tak berurusan sendiri. Sepanjang perjalanan, aku tak mampu nak berhenti berfikir. Macam-macam aku fikir. Aku terasa usaha aku mencari kerja kat sini masih belum cukup. Betul ke aku nak balik dah?

Aku rasa nak je singgah mana-mana cari kerja. Aku tak reti nak jalan sorang-sorang, so, tak kot. Aku tengok-tengok ke luar kot2 nampak kawasan yang banyak klinik. Tapi, aku tau, aku takkan turun pun.

Sampai kat stesen, aku lega jugak aku buat keputusan balik esok. Terpampang dah, 'TIKET HARINI HABIS'. Okay. Aku memang ditakdirkan balik esok. Aku ambik tiket sebelah petang sikit biar tak tergesa-gesa.

Lega je bila dah beli tiket. Aku terus balik, tak singgah dah mana-mana. InsyaAllah, kalau tak ada aral melintang maka, aku akan balik esok. That's it. It's tomorrow. I'll be going home with no job yet. I hope they understand and will not complain. I will be very sad if they do.

p/s: I want to call someone, but she seems busy. I miss you, you know?

Aku ingin pulang..~

Assalamualaikum warhamtullah..

Sebelum ni, aku beritahu orang kat rumah nak balik hari Sabtu. Hari ni dah hari Sabtu. Adakah aku akan balik kampung hari ni?

Buat pengetahuan, aku sangat berat hati nak balik sebab tujuan asal aku nak cari kerja tak berhasil. Aku tengah pujuk diri supaya tabah menghadapi semua ni - okay, ayat novel.

Rasa macam tersia-sia datang sini, tapi, mungkin inilah usaha yang perlu aku buat untuk dapat kerja suatu hari nanti. Kan kawan aku dah kata, Allah nak bukakan pintu lain untuk aku? InsyaAllah.

Aku harapkan doa semua orang je. Orang kata, doa yang makbul adalah bila orang yang didoakan tak tau kita doa untuk dia. Lebih ikhlas mungkin. Doa kat aku rahsia2 ye? Amiin..

Hari ni, aku nak pergi beli tiket je. InsyaAllah balik esok- berat hati. Dah pesan siap2 kat adik, jangan tanya dapat kerja tak. Nanti aku tensen. Boleh tak?

Kawan-kawan aku ramai cakap, tak payah balik dulu. Stay je la dulu, cari lagi. Aku tau diorang baik hati nak kasi aku tumpang walaupun lama Tapi, mak aku dah tanya. Mesti dia risau aku duduk sini sorang-sorang tak ada duit. Aku janji seminggu je nak duduk sini. Aku pun serba salah macam ni duduk rumah diorang.

Always thinking about my future - but I think, sometimes, my brain is tired.


p/s: Sedaya upaya pujuk diri. Please show me the way.

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Assalaikum warahmatullah.

Dah terajin join segmen, hari ni aku nak join bloglist cicaktersepit pulak. Klik pada banner untuk ke sana ye?

Saya dah follow kamu. Harap dapat menambah kenalan dan followers saya. Ehehe.

"Life is not as awesome as you think" <--ini tagline kawan kita ni.

But it can be as awesome if you learn to enjoy and appreciate it. <--ini respon aku. Hehe.

p/s: Aku harus pulang. Maafkan aku kalau aku tak bawa berita gembira.

Fear of Rejection~

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah.

Wow, English day! Haha. With my low level English, I would like to talk about this thing so called fear of rejection. It's just pop out of my mind because of an entry by a certain someone, whom I think better be kept in secret.

Certain people close their doors to others. They feel that it is the best way to protect themselves. They might said that they just don't want to hurt anybody or they are protecting themselves as per say. However, fear of rejection can be the cause.

Because of something that happened in the past, they feel like they are not worth to be with. They are protecting their selves as they fear being abandoned in the future so, they end up not starting any relationship.

In connective behavioral therapy, the therapist would help in order to change the way of this kind of people think. They believe that the way we think will affect the way we act and how people react to us.

example:

Miss A saw a very nice gentleman and think, "He's so handsome and nice. But, I guess he will not look at me at all."

The result would be, she avoid the nice gentleman and he miss the chance to meet her.

Or it could be, she make a face as she look at him, and he would feel the negative aura written on her face.

If she was able to think rationally," He's so handsome. He might not look at me but there's no prove he will not. Maybe I should just walk naturally."

The result, the man might see her and only God knows what will happen. She already grabbed the chance!

So, fear of rejection sometimes haunt you a for a very long time that you end up feel miserable and pathetic. But, cheer up! When the time comes, you would see that the future is so bright if you want it to be to.

When God close a door for you, he is opening another one that is much much better for you to enter.

p/s: Kawan aku cakap, "Mungkin kau tak dapat kerja sekarang ni, sebab Allah nak kasi kerja yang lebih baik untuk kau."
 Dan seorang kawan lain cakap, "when God close a door, he will open another window for us, believe it"